we are

kids gone bad.
at east i feel like i am
when my father fells me he wished he'd done a better job on me.
oh fuck.
really. what do i do
do i sit here and ask myself if it's okay?
do i?
he doesn't want anything to do with me
he doesn't want to be close to me
or within inches of my pillow.
so i'll just fall asleep
but what if its me.
so what.
what.